.A Gift from God
October 3 2012
Sometimes the gifts we get from God have unexpected wrappers,
Almost as if God has a sense of Humor.
Two days ago I fell and smashed my face and ankle.
I’m being watched (baby sat) for a concussion.
My face and ankle HURT!
It’s hard to hobble down the hallway to the bathroom
Using unaccustomed crutches – every step a stab of pain..
People see my purple blue and greenish swollen face, and gasp.
They don’t see how God — maybe laughing gleefully — has turned things upside down —
How through the heart and hands and voice of friends who come to help
I’m showered with a love so pure it takes my breath away –
Like being suddenly within the wondrous wash of color in a rainbow.
This love transforms me with the surging, unifying power of all that is –
Knowing through me that the body’s wounds , though painful feeling —
Scaring people looking on– are just the gift wrap. Inside I am united with the gift – the love.
That’s all that matters. And my heart is smiling — grateful.
As a volunteer caregiver, I’ve never understood the power of the love that I’ve expressed. I’ve always thought I was just being me, doing my little bit, maybe feeling a little tired, a little irritated that the person who needed my assistance put some pressure on my conscience. On the other side of the situation, when I’ve needed people’s help, I’ve felt like I was burdening the other person who was helping. Those two perceptions, of course, mirror each other in concrete time and space. This time, as the person needing help, I’m beginning to see that what really happens in that relationship of helper and helped is God communicating with God, present in the people carrying out and receiving the act of helping. The real action that blows me away takes place in God-space, not at all in our earth-bound physical reality – That earth- knowing is just the gift wrap for moments of unimaginable bliss and beauty.